Microtonal Recital

I had my microtonal horn recital last night at Roulette. Overall, I’m happy. Some things could have gone better of course, but I’m trying to ease up on my post-performance perfectionism. I got a lot of good feedback about my piece Tallulah for horn and laptop. I just need to get over my phobia that I am boring the audience to death while I do laptop stuff. I cut my piece short because I was convinced that it was dragging on, but most people I spoke to said they wished it was longer! Cool!
Scelsi’s Khoom went really well too. Mad props to Mellissa Hughes who rocked out the vocals despite a cold that just wouldn’t go away! I was super-pumped about the ensemble, some of my favorite musicians and people in the world were playing.

Here is the list of players:
John Altieri – Conductor
Mellissa Hughes – Voice
Caleb Burhans – Violin
Chris Otto – Violin
Brian Lindgren – Viola
Kevin McFarland – Cello
Shannon Zakarison – Percussion

Thanks to everyone who showed up. Mad Wuvs!!!

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Tor-ture, tor-ture, tor-ture…

Maybe it’s apathy, or boredom. I don’t know. I have struggled to get worked up over recent crises regarding atrocity. Guantanamo, Darfur, torture… I think it has something to do with the protesters.

Independently I think about these subjects and feel disgusted, angered, saddened. Oddly enough, when I think about the multitude of affected responses to these subjects I feel completely different types of digust, anger, and sadness. I am a great believer in peoples’ responsibility to organize and change things. Greater change happens with movements, not laws. Still, the screeching old woman railing against Bush, the hipster with the Save Darfur t-shirt, the players in orange jump-suits; why do they repel me so? I tend to agree with them. Strangely, they make me want to care less about these issues.

I will admit that my repulsion is most likely a matter of my own psychology, that given the ability to focus and join the group for the common goal I would find these protests to be inspiring. But I have been breeding myself as an individualist in recent years, for better or worse. Better and worse in that I feel I’ve become much more discriminatory. I agree with these people on so many issues but the people feel so foreign to me. It is similar to attending a church: I agree with valuing peace, love and altruism but the way they go about it is so fucked-up.

I used to be involved in protesting, most often before and just after the beginning of the Iraq War. I was in London for a large part of this and went to some of the largest protests in London’s history. The one issue I noticed on both sides of the Atlantic was the problem with homogeneity. If you were against the war you also had to be accordingly for or against a slew of other issues, essentially adhering to the generic far-leftist party line. Being anti-war meant being anti-Israel, anti-gun, pro-gay marriage, pro-drug, pro-radical feminist, anti-McDonalds, anti-racist, anti-capitalist, anti-globalization; and specifically in the U.S. pro-choice, anti-death penalty, pro-health care, pro-hate-crimes laws, etc.

Now, I actually agree with almost all of these sentiments. But I didn’t go to the protest to display my disgust at anti-homosexual legislation, I went because I was AGAINST THE WAR. That is it. Demonstration organizers need to get it through their head that a focused message, unencumbered by loosely related issues, is the best way to get their message out.

I have a problem with the protest culture:

Where you have to echo chants and slogans that some person you don’t even know is shouting at the head of your line.

Where the dress code requires clever t-shirts, face-covering bandanas, vaguely junta-style fatigues, and restriction of brand-based clothing.

Where everyone is fighting to prove how much more devoted they are to “The Fight” than everyone else is.

Where agreeing with someone on one issue is acceptable, but disagreeing on another is cause to be shouted down.

Where people use complex-sounding words such as “plutocracy”, “oligarchy”, “globalization”, and “totalitarianism”, which are essentially basic concepts, but they make you feel smarter when you shout ’em.

Where shitty folk musicians, musicians from obscure countries, chick-rock bands, and obsolete punk bands write overwrought “songs with a message” that end up sounding like fucking North Korean Nationalist Pride songs.

Where they generally hate materialism, except when it comes to the multitude of clever buttons on their jackets and backpacks.

Where people think that they have found the real news because they have watched Democracy Now! a few times.

Ok I could keep going on this, but you get the idea.

The saddest thing is that you know they are going to approve Mukasey. Despite the diluted messages of the “people”, another pro-torture shitbag gets in office. Damn! I could have sworn that dressing up in orange jumpsuits and shouting, “Death to the Plutocrats! Death to the Plutocrats!!” would have done the job…

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My Sis and Lance Bass

Yo! Check out my sister, the illustrious Emmy Award-winning Suzanne Marques, interviewing Lance Bass for E News HERE. I love when Ryan Seacrest says, “Suzanne Marques, you know her!”.

Suzy’s a blogger as well. Check out her blog while you’re at it.

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Sasha Grey is my new hero

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Sasha Grey is my new hero. Sure it probably makes me appear somewhat slimy announcing a 19 year old hardcore porn star as my new hero, but so be it. She rocks. She is also one of many people to emerge from being a guest on the Tyra Banks Show offended by the chopping and editing job they made of her appearance. You can watch her appearance here. As is usual, the show had an opinion, the dull mainstream conservative and faux-feminist opinion that pornography is merely exploitative. Tyra and her cadre of editors did their best to edit Sasha’s responses and tailor her questions to make her appear as an innocent mislead girl lost in the corrupt world of porn.
According to Sasha’s blog (on Myspace):

When the camera would cut to my responses a majority of the time they were showing you a shot of me listening to Tyra’s questions (ie reaction shots)…. so it appeared as if I had nothing to say. Believe me, I had plenty to say. I started out by voicing my thoughts on the negative aspects of this business, I told Tyra she was judging me, I referred to Pasolini, Madonna, and Peaches… “Every edit is a lie”-Jean Luc Godard.

I have read several other accounts of the restrictive edited narrative of Tyra’s show. Of course, railing at a trashy TV show is futile, it still pisses me off. The best is after Sasha describes a gangbang scene and Tyra says she needs a break to clear her head, wtf… like Tyra didn’t live through shit 10 times more scandalous living the coke-addled life of a supermodel.

Luckily, despite the hack job, you can still get a sense of Sasha’s insightful justification of her chosen life. She doesn’t hide from the risks and controversies of her line of work (unfortunately the producers revel in these admissions) and she appears as a strong person who is not afraid to vastly explore her sexual side. Her background was anything but sordid and her introduction to the world of porn was clearly a matter of choice. But as expected, the show goes out of its way to portray Sasha as a wayward girl ignorant of what is best for herself.

This is also not the first time the Tyra show has reveled in this porn star exploitation to the offense of her guests. Alt-porn star Violet Blue recently explained her surreal Tyra experience on her blog. Fuck Tyra and her safe brand of “empowerment”. If Sasha Grey is not empowered I don’t know who is.

Let’s hope that Sasha Grey is the future of porn: a smart independent starlet who does everything on film short of breaking the law, all with a solid moral justification. She refused to be victimized yet acknowledges the bullshit of the porn industry. If that weren’t enough, in her newest movie, Dave Navarro’s Broken (that’s right, Navarro from Jane’s Addiction), she opens the movie with a masturbation-while-crying scene. She’s brought my favorite joke to life!

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Back

Hey, I’m back in town after a week or so of touring with AWS. Physically and mentally exhausted, but I had a good time. Audiences in DC and Virginia are weird, btw.

Here’s a few pics from the tour:

Late night Holiday Inn drinkin sessions-
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My impromptu halloween costume, which consisted of a Sweeney Todd poster stapled to my shirt-
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My new favorite drink: Clamato and Budweiser! (ok, it was really weird, but not as bad as you would think!)-
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And last but not least, me smoking a cigarette from a fake bloody hand I stole from a comfort in in Maryland-
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I’ll be back and bloggin’ this week.

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New unaired Family Guy!! Stewie Kills Lois!

I feel a little bad about posting this, since it’s apparently not the finalized version, but then again fuck it. I don’t feel like waiting another week and a half and neither do you. So here it is in all it’s glory:

Stewie Kills Lois

-found at sidereel

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Voices That Care

This is about Gulf War 1, just so you know, curiously free of any military imagery:

I don’t see how growing up in that bastion of mediocrity that was the late 80s/early 90s could fail to mess you up in the head a little. I remember watching shit like this as a kid and knowing that something wasn’t quite right, but lacking any way of knowing what right was. I can watch We Are The World as something mildly humorous, since my memory is from when I was 5, very vague. But Voices That Care just kind of makes me uncomfortable. Please Movie/Rock/Pop Stars, don’t ever do anything like this again, please?

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The Sarah Connor Chronicles

Hell fucking yes. Yeah, it’ll probably suck. But it could be good. It could… If they put some money into it and got some good writers and actors, it could rock. I mean 24 shouldn’t have been good and it is, despite the torture. In my fantasy The Sarah Connor Chronicles becomes an awesome new serial drama and Terminator 3 never happened.

Oh yeah and this is the chick playing Sarah Connor:
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Mafoo’s ABC Adventure

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Subway Thoughts

Just waited for 20 minutes on an A-train at Broadway-Nassau. The train sat there, more and more people squeezing on, the subway doors continuously beginning to close and then snapping back suddenly. It wasn't exactly rhythmic, but it had a certain obscene quality to it, like a turtle head nervously poking out – or the colloquial bathroom analogy that refers to this.
This is not the first time I've thought of routine subway experiences in terms of bowel metaphors. The experience of a flood of commuters spilling out of a freshly-opened pair of subway doors has always reminded me of an exhaustively liberating bowel movement. The train feels lighter. You have an indistinct feeling of freedom, as if the train would never fill up to same degree it just was.
I'm listening to a British singer called Bat For Lashes. Her new album, titled Fur & Gold, is getting very good reviews. What caught my eye was the routine comparison of her to Kate Bush, someone with whose music I have a near-unhealthy obsession.
Her music is really interesting – vocally she is similar to Kate Bush and Bjork, but steers clear of absorbing the influence in a way that manifests itself to obviously. Like Kate, and a growing number of British female singers such as Lily Allen, she proudly sings in her native accent, but displays a vocal versatility so that she doesn't rely on this as schtick.
Stylistically, the music is very diverse. It delves into styles as varied as Petula Clark-ish 60s britpop in What's a Girl to Do?, to industrial in Trophy, and into creepy downtempo surf rock in Sarah that seems right out of Blue Velvet. Oh yeah, and there is a bunch of harpsichord, like a lot.
What separates her the most from those esteemed musicians with whom she is often compared is her lyrics. Let me put it this way: I enjoy the music best when I don't think about the lyrics. I mean, they're not Ashley Simpson-bad, but they seem at worst the type you would see scrawled in a angst-oppressed middle-schooler's journal and at best from the lyrics sheet of a middle-ages-obsessed 70s British progger.
Here's an example of the former, from I Saw a Light:

The light gave me life
Helped me see more clearly
And the children went to sleep
And the car was towed away
And the leaves were rustling
As the night turned to day

And of the latter, from Trophy:

The queens and the court jesters
Clapped, adored
Their hearts swelled to overdrive a
Mercy sword
Mercy this and mercy that
Let justice prevail
But if just want my trophy back
It's not for sale

I'd be lying if I said the lyrics didn't get in the way. Every once in a while I'm like: Damn girl, you're my age! Why do you write lyrics like a 13 year old boy?
My advice would be for her to simplify her lyrics, stop trying to be profound and just focus on what sits well on her tongue, but of course this is coming from a song-writer whose songs usually consist of one sentence.

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